Birthday Blues

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My birthday is coming up soon, and if I’m being totally honest, I’ve been in my feelings about it. You know that strange, quiet kind of mood that creeps in right before a birthday? That’s exactly where I am right now—sitting in the in-between of excitement and a little sadness I can’t fully explain.

There’s something about stepping into 29 that feels big. It’s the last chapter of my twenties, and while part of me is grateful for everything these years have taught me, another part is feeling the pressure. The “Am I where I should be?” thoughts keep swirling around. I’ve caught myself reflecting on past decisions, the milestones I thought I’d hit by now, and all the ways life has surprised me—both beautifully and painfully.

It’s not that I’m dreading my birthday; it’s more that I’m... processing. Letting myself feel the weight of time passing and trying to make peace with everything it brings—growth, change, uncertainty.

In the middle of these feelings, I’m also holding onto gratitude. For the woman I’m becoming. For the love and friendships I have. For the little joys—like Skye’s playful pounces —that ground me when my thoughts get too loud.

So, as I count down the days to 29, I’m reminding myself it’s okay to have mixed emotions. Birthdays can be messy. They can bring up doubts and dreams all at once. But they’re also a reminder that we’re here, still growing, still becoming.


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